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PREFACE
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-6
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-1
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-2
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-3-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

said that she would "see about having the end taken off." But I 

was never circumcised. Her words gave me the doubly unpleasant 

impression that my _glans_ was to be cut off. 

 

There came occasionally to the kitchen of Dr. W.'s house a 

foul-mouthed Irish laundress who used coarse language to me 

concerning urination. I loathed the woman, and yet one night I 

dreamed that I was embracing her naked form and rolling over and 

over with her on the bed; and in spite of my sight of female 

genitals a few months before, I thought of her as having organs 

of my own kind and size. At my first school I watched a 

red-haired boy of 12 expose the penis of a 7-year-old boy as he 

lay on his back in the bath-room. I do not remember that the 

sight gave me sexual pleasure. 

 

I spent the summer before I was 8 in a double house. The adopted 

daughter of our neighbor (a neurotic, retired physician) was a 

girl of 13 who had been taken from a poor laboring family. She 

got me to show her my parts, touched them, and asked whether I 

urinated from my scrotum. She also induced me to play with her 

genitals as we sat on a sofa in the twilight, and to spank her 

naked nates with the back of a hair-brush as she lay on a bed; 

but from none of these performances did I derive physical 

satisfaction. The girl E. and I took delight in "talking dirty 

secrets," as she expressed it. Her young cousin H. (nephew of her 

adopted mother) never heard me use the word "thing" without 

suggestively smiling. E. recalled the pleasant hours that she had 

spent with her cousin when they were in their night-gowns. She 

did not particularize these sexual relations. Under the 

board-walk the boy H. and I once defecated in bottles. Some 

little girls who lived opposite us pulled up their dresses one 

night and "dared" each other to dance out beyond the end of the 

house, in full view of the road. We boys merely looked on. 

 

I now fell passionately in love with a remarkably handsome little 

boy of my own age. I longed to kiss and hug him, but I did not 

dare to do so, for he was haughty and intolerant of my 

attentions. I even allowed him to stand with one foot on me and 

remark in a loud tone: "I am Conqueror!" I endured no end of 

petty insults and much ill-treatment from this boy. I reached the 

height of my passion on the night that he appeared at our 

cottage in a tight-fitting suit of pepper-and-salt. I gloried in 

his perfect legs and besought my guardian that she would buy me a 

similar suit of clothes. 

 

For the summer after I was 8 years old I lived in a cottage in a 

country town. The servant maid M. was a young girl of 16 who 

listened eagerly to my accounts of the "secrets" and actions in 

which the girl E. and I had taken delight a year before. I think 

that M. arranged a meeting between a little black-haired girl and 

me in order that we might take a walk and play sexually with each 

other. Just as we were starting on our walk one of my relatives 

said that I must not leave the yard. 

 

The little girl and I had see-sawed together and I had been 


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